Early Sunday Morning In Blue

Early sunday morning, get confused with my self. No sunday morning song, no sunday morning mp3, nothing.I am trying to make conversation between me and my self. Here is the monolog:

I : Morning

Me : Morning, how are you??

I : Fine, thanks. What are you doing now?

Me : Hmmm.. trying to figure out for what I am being here.

I : Did you already find it now?

Me : Not yet. Sometimes I think there is a mistake for being here, or I can say, I’m here in the perfect place but in the wrong time. I can’t enjoy the journey so far.

I : But you are here now, aren’t you?

Me : Yeah, that make me also think I must face this crazy moments until you can enjoy something here. For the time being, no use to complaining and sighing all the time. It is a difficult time but when you pass it, you’ll get a full of joy.

I : What are you doing when such a things blow up your mind?

Me : Just standing in the silence and sadness, going deep inside my self, freezing my soul, crashing, and finally crying. Crying is the best way to release the pressure, thank to God because He creates tears beneath our eyes. Tears make the worst thing become better and tears make the rainbow after the typhoon.

I : When did your last cry?

Me : The last cry? Now! Do you believe me, you can’t even see or feel when I cry. Because my eyes can’t produce more tears than I need. Shame on me, but that’s the way I feel.

I : Ok, I understand keep on crying if that’s make you feel better. But one thing, A man can do their very best, friend. But, let God do the rest. I believe you can find your way to save your soul. Don.t get it too deep and too hard, because the world just rotating all the time. The man can feel the top of the mountain, if he also knew the deepest part of the sea. Right? Come on friend, wake up and say hallo to other part of the world, You’ll find why you’re here. God will never take you until this place, just to leave you without any help. He is watching you and encourage you to be better. I hope soon.

Me : Thanks friend, that’s very kind of you.

I : You’re welcome.

Hmmmm… Not really getting better after this conversation….

kakahelmy @ July 27, 2008